Arstid ütlesid Vene moeinfluentserile, et ta on seitsme kuu pärast surnud (7)

„Mul diagnoositi tänavu haruldane kopsuhaigus ja öeldi, et mul on elada jäänud seitse kuud,“ pihib kolme laps ema Duma Instagrami postituses. Ta oli enda sõnul hullupööra hirmul. „Aga tagasi vaadates mõistan, et need viimased paar paranemiskuud on ilmselt olnud kogu mu elu õnnelikemad.“ 

 

 

 

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Earlier this year I was diagnosed with a rare lung disease, and given 7 months to live. It was crazy scary then, but looking back, I realise that the past few months of recovery were possibly the happiest months of my entire life. I suddenly stopped running the marathon and realized how much I love life, how beautiful our world is and how much I want to stay here. With the people I love. For the first time in my life, I saw the bright blue of the skies. And the beautiful green of the trees. As if I had lived on a different planet before. I wake up happy, just because I can spend one more day here. Not asking for more or trying to run faster. My entire life I was seeking approval and obsessing over “likes” both in the physical and virtual worlds, without realizing that I actually had to learn how to “like” myself first. Years of self criticism and doubt, stress, dieting, physically, mentally and emotionally pushing and pushing myself got my immune system to collapse and I had made myself fatally sick. I now realise that these past months were also the most creative months of my entire 34 years. Yet success to me today is not measured by external indicators anymore, but by what’s inside. It is measured by my own health, and the health of those I love. It is measured by how I choose to contribute to the world. For the past 2 years, the Universe caused me to experience a number of remarkably serendipitous events that sometimes felt surreal; like how a silly mistake, made by my lawyer, led me to an early diagnosis, and gave me a chance to live. I saw signs everywhere. As if someone was telling me: “don’t give up”. Today I continue to follow my big dream, and genuinely believe it can help save our planet. No matter what. And against all odds. One day I hope I’ll be able to tell you all about it. And most importantly: Thank you to all the wonderful people in my life, I love you with all my heart (and my lungs 🤓).

A post shared by Miroslava Duma (@miraduma) on Dec 1, 2019 at 7:08am PST

Ränk diagnoos muutis Miroslava ellusuhtumist - naine, kes oleks otsekui maratoni jooksnud, seisatas äkki. „Mõistsin, kui väga ma elu armastan, kui kaunis on meie maailm ja kui väga ma tahan siia jääda - armastatud inimeste seltsi.“ Duma nägi enda sõnul esmakordselt taevasina ja puude kaunist haljendust. „Ma oleksin enne otsekui mingil teisel planeedil elanud. Ärkasin õnnelikuna juba ainuüksi sellepärast, et saan siin veel ühe päeva veeta.“

 

 

 

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A post shared by Miroslava Duma (@miraduma) on Sep 24, 2019 at 9:31am PDT

Miroslava on mõistnud, et kogu ta senine elu on möödunud heakskiitu otsides. Kuid sotsiaalmeedias laike oodates pole ta taibanud, et peab esmalt iseendale meeldima. Ta usub, et saatuslikus haigestumises on süüdi aastatepikkune enesekriitika ja kahtlused, stress, dieedipidamine ja arutu edasipürgimine, mistõttu immuunsüsteem varises kokku. Nüüd mõõdab ta edu ainult enda ja oma lähedaste tervisega. 

Duma ei täpsustanud, mis haigusega on tegu, ega paljastanud ka prognoosi, kuid andis mõista, et on paranemas.